I am fine

If she asks how you are:
Don’t tell her you can’t sleep at night because the voices in your head keep telling you to kill your parents.
Don’t tell her you feel loneliest when in a crowd.
Don’t tell her that depression is a constant companion.

If she begs to ask what’s wrong:
Don’t tell her your birthday made you sad because your father never acknowledged it.
Don’t tell her the only time you felt alive was when you were depressed.
Don’t tell her of the blocked memories of when……

If she says she loves you:
Don’t tell her you don’t know what love feels like.
Don’t tell her the only sort of love you know is the love of an oppressor; a bittersweet kind of love.
Don’t tell her she will never know your deepest darkest secrets because you blocked it out.

If she cries and says you don’t love her:
Don’t tell her that crying women gives you a hard on.
Don’t tell her that to you love is a noun and not a verb.
Don’t tell her that making her cry is the only form of emotion you can relate with.

If she threatens to walk out on you:
Do tell her that broken crayons still color.
Pls, Do tell her a lie.
Do tell her ‘I am fine’.